Wednesday, April 12, 2006 @2:15 AM
gosh. sa ngayon, sobrang windang ako. and i dont even know why in particular am i so affected. i just read someone's blog, and there was this something that really made my heart jump. literally. tumalon talaga heart ko!
!!!!!!!!
wala akong masabi.
actually meron. but i cant say it.
pero i will. i will say it here. i dont even know if i want the person to read this or not. and i DONT care.
here goes.
hey. what's up with that? i thought we were cool about this. are you avoiding me or somethig?!! i was thinking, at least you're not so into yourself that you still talk to me, and allow me to be your friend. but really. what's up? do you not want me to be your friend anymore?? do you want me not to care anymore?! or do you simply want me out of your world? well, here's the thing. i wanted out for so long, man. and i still do.but it's so freakin hard! i could not control this. i never wanted to be in this. really. i dont get you. i thought i knew you well enough to know that we'll be ok with this. but i guess nobody really knows who you are. so what now?!! are we playing roles here?? gosh. i dont even know if i could look at you again. and if i could, i dont know how i will talk to you [if i can].
fart.
i dont know what to think of you anymore. is that you? i thought you showed me who you really are. but i am not too sure of that right now.
to think i saw your eyes honest and beautiful.
when will your cold pretentious show end?
i cant believe i am saying this to you. i cant believe you're doing this. i cant believe any of this is happening. but it is. oh well.
but i really really hope i am wrong. that i have just misinterpreted what happened. i really do. this is one of the times when i really really wish i was wrong.
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when do you think will we see each other again?
will we ever?
haha.
fart.
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im sorry for the drama.
my bestfriend's probably asleep by now and i cant talk to anyone else about it.
really sorry.
written on every page of my imagination